chicago is my happy place.

happy september, happy labor day. i didnt post yesterday because i got home super late. me and caylin were beachin' it up at weko beach in michigan. i guess eleven isnt that late, but i was experiancing a whirl of emotions that i didnt want to spell out in writing. i think that might have messed up the perfection of the feeling, if i tried to analyse it. but no, i just layed in bed and stared at the ceiling and wished that i was in chicago. or laying on the beach, looking at the stars...

...with ken. let me start at the beginning: me and caylin decided that we wanted to kill two birds with one stone...i wanted to meet some guys to celebrate singleness and she wanted to pwn some kids at volleyball. and there happened to be some guys playing at the time. so we went and joined their game, and started chatting them up...well, eventually we got bored of volleyball. and we decided to go run around on the dunes. so we did, and it ended up being a trek through the woods..well me and ken pretty much just talked the whole time. and we really hit it off. the creek we were following opened up to the beach, and we kinda started walking along the shore...exciting. and about 45 minutes later, we wanted to go back into the woods. and as it turned out, luke and caylin had stopped following us, so far away that we couldnt see them. it was pretty funny. so we turned around, kept talking...it was pretty sweet. hes sweet. damn those boys that are just about perfect that live so far away! we watched the sunset over lake michigan, and it was a little bit romantic. things were pretty good, i guess you could say. i miss him already.

i really dont know what else to say. except that i hate this and i hate what im feeling and i hate that i cant just get over him already. i guess its pretty stupid that my heart leapt when i saw that zach facebook messaged me...but of course, it was about taylor. my god. could this be any more painful, zach? could you please just stab me in the throat already?

ill just let my mind wander to its happy place: the dunes at weko beach.
love, kaatie