my timing is a little off.

today some good things happened: ethan seemed to be a little more chill, which was good, and it actually helped me calm down a little about that situation. i went to c lunch and talked to him and some of his friends. it was a good time. i found out that i did not, in fact, fail the chemistry quiz...in fact, i got a c. thats a ton better than i expected, so therefore i am pleased with that, even though its still low. you can recover from a c. but usually not for a complete f. so there is hope in chemistry. things werent so good for steph, though. she actually did fail it. poor her. i got about a hundred new songs, of alot of really good bands. and then the last thing...i was plesantly suprised when i logged into blogger today with the new reading list, and how you can see who follows your blog. and i have one! yayy! it makes me feel kindof special.

i feel like im always up and down with my feelings these days, so i think im going to stop focusing on them in these posts. they sorta get me in trouble anyway. i was thinking today about how i really want to say something to someone someday that sounds like its from a movie. you know...like its so good and so right, and right at the exact right time; its just like WHAM. i think of these things after the fact, mostly. so someday, im gonna nail it. and its gonna be great. anyway. i cant get my mind off of a certain someone.. and i dont mind at all. in fact, its kinda keeping me going for the time being. just knowing that there IS someone out there...nevermind. its making me daydream. steven wants me to go to the leo football game with him on friday, and im not sure if thats such a good idea. especially in light of past events. but i do miss hanging out with him, like when we were best friends. hmm, never thought i would. but whatever. i dont even know what im thinking most of the time. it keeps things interesting, for sure.

its raining, and that makes me happy. i like fallling asleep to the sound of rain. and these days, it reminds me of ken. like....just about everything, actuallly.
love, kaatie