ideal sunday.

this is not the first post of an online war, if you were wondering. quit reading if you dont want to hear my point of view. if you have no idea what that means, then nevermind.

yes, well. we all do things wrong, i suppose. i accept that i am a human and that i have my moods and go though phases and periods and the like. i know that i can be a little obnoxious and maybe i am kinda arrogant. but i really dont think i did anything wrong this time. i can see how i might have been able to improve the situation to make ashley happy. what can i do now though? its definately after the fact, and after the fact you can change nothing. am i right? yes. i dont even know exactly why she is so veryvery angry, how ive been acting wierd, etc etc. i cannot change the past, or take back what i did or said, nor do i want to make excuses or beat around the bush and draw something out thats unnecessary in the first place. drama drama drama drama drama. that is not my ideal sunday. my ideal sunday involves being content and mulling over saturday night. which was fabulous and confusing, all at the same time. AND FOR THE RECORD: no plans were made and zach did not come over to caylins. ok? ok.

that project for fashion class [which im supposed to be working on right now] is going wonderfully. a good mistake allowed my mom to give me a fabulous idea which should make mine one of the best, if not the coolest poster ive ever created for anything. which is saying something, because both times i did llama club [hell yes! in third and fourth grade, haha] my poster was grade champion and went on to state. i dont know, i just think i have a good eye for stuff like balance and design. which is a little concieted, i know, but i think its pretty exciting.my other homework was pretty gay, which is normal. and ive been texting felix all day, which basically makes up for the squabble thats taking place. it defiately does. i think the only thing that would make me happier would be if zach called me, all on his own. but i think for the first time in a while, i would be ok if he didnt. i guess you could say that im confused, but know exactly what i want. if that makes any sense to you. im still trying to get it all figured out in my head. at least i know that whichever way it goes, things are going to be alright.

im starting to realize whats good for me.
love, kaatie