i believe its called judgemental.

today i got my permit, had my hair colored, drove all the way to caylins and back, jumped on the trampoline, and ate a popsicle. only one thing could have made my summer day more enjoyable. but i only tease myself with that thought. a tornado touched the ground right by my house, and a random trampoline appeared in our yard. it was exciting, i guess. i was at the bmv at the time, and that definately sucked all of the intensity out of the storm. but i dont look like a total fag in the picture on my permit, so it was a success. shit. i was gonna say something else, but then the phone rang and i forgot. oh well.......

slightly controversial: i was reading a music review sight called Plugged In that ive enjoyed looking at since i was in about seventh grade. its run by a really conservative christian magazine or website or something like that..i dont really know. anyway, the reviews are halarious to read, especially of my favorite bands, if theyve heard of them to review them at all. its something to do every now and then when im poking around on the internet. judge me..i know its random. i get a kick out of it. aanyway. yesterday i was reading a review of death cab for cutie's first album, plans. it was offending, to be quite honest. they didnt totally bash the album, like they do sometimes, and call it satanic or something random like that. they just totally but this pretentious, judgemental spin on my favorite song from that album, which is probably in the top ten of fave songs ever. its called 'different names for the same thing' and the lyrics are some of gibbard's finest.

Alone on a train aimless in wonder
An outdated map crumbled in my pocket
But I didn't care where I was going
'Cause they're all different names for the same place.
The coast disappeared when the sea drowned the sun
And I knew no words to share with anyone
The boundaries of language I quietly cursed
And all the different names for the same thing
There are different names for the same things
There are different names for the same things...

not a lot, but for me, those words pack a huge punch and are totally spot on. thats the way to look at the world...people and places; it doesnt matter where in the world you go. everyone's the same, essentially. we all love and laugh and smile and cry and fear and need and want universally.

i didnt originally see the lyrics as having a religious meaning, but then Maxfield and Smithouser mentioned it in their review...and i can see how the phrase 'different names for the same thing' might take on a spiritual meaning in some context, and i know that they said "which is only a problem if referring to the afterlife." but it just got me thinking.

religion has always been a given in our house. we go to church, we pray before dinner, we dont argue about it. thats fine. ive been to church camp a few times. but sometimes, i wonder. i consider myself a logical person. i like to research, to know facts, to make decisions for myself. i know alot about christianity, and to me, it seems like it doesnt always, well, add up. for instance: if god loved the world that he saved everyone, why isnt everyone included? the bible was written by people, not by god. who are they to say that a man cant love another man? arent you supposed to fall in love with the person? but specifically related to this post: judism, islam, and christianity are extremely similar on most points. why is it so wrong to think that the other two arent just different skew from a different group of people? with such a loving god, why couldnt there be more than one path to him? so many questions like that. and i just hate the fact that the church is so intolerant! drives me crazy, actually. i dont have a problem with gays, straights, muslims, jews, hindus, agnostics, poor people, rich people, you, your mother, or the homeless man on the street. is tolerance so wrong?

"Because many of these songs are open to interpretation, families should use caution."
that, my fans, friends, and enemy spies, is terrible. little comments..ugh. wow.

tolerate. project of my lifetime. sometimes its hard..i cant say that i dont have inclinations to judge and stuff like that. and i know i do it all the time. but seriously.
love, kaatie