cinematic adventures.

i decided that im an extremely jealous person. i also decided that when youre used to being confident all the time, being made insecure isnt fun. actually, it really sucks. i met some of zachs friends today...macie, sawyer, and hilary. i already knew that sawyer was dumb and immature, but he was fatter than i expected, which was a wierd observation, but i guess thats why this is my blog. maybe hell read it and put up a better picture on facebook. or lose weight. who knows. maybe then someone will go out with him. doubt it. macie and hilary though...they were different than people id think zach would hang out with. which is cool, i guess. hes allowed to have friends. except they were both really loud and obnoxious and seemed ditzy and were really pretty and were probably cooler and more interesting and more fun than i am. at first i was a little mad, but then i just felt...small. like after finding out what kind of girls he usually hangs out with, i could never compete for very long. it was a lot like seeing them and thinking to myself, jeez..this wont last long. which i regret thinking a hundred percent because thats all im going to be able to think about when im talking to him until he tells me that it isnt true. why he needs to tell me, i dont know. im just that kind of person, i guess. i want to feel like i deserve someone like him. i want to feel like im just as good as the older, louder, prettier girls. but i cant.

the happening was the dumbest movie ive ever seen, with the worst acting ive ever seen. m night shyamalan is my favorite director, because of signs and the sixth sense. ive never seen one of his movies and been like, holy shit, that was a waste of time. but this one was terrible. it had a rediculous plot, laughable acting, and terrible effects. but the killer was the fact that it totally made a joke of the state of the planet, which isnt a joke. a movie on the subject of the world needing to go green should at least be somewhat believable or mildy entertaining to make even the slightest bit of a statement. wall-e did a better job.

my stomach hurts.
love,kaatie